I am on cycle day 19 and 5 days past ovulation. I think. I think, because this month I decided not to do any tracking. I am now regretting this!!
Today has been particularly hard. This morning after I went to the toilet, I discovered a spot of blood. I came out of the bathroom beaming at Chris. I think I might have been a bit optimistic that this was bleeding from implantation. The rest of the day I have had abdominal pains, and I am now sat here with a hot water bottle, still in pain. I’ll see how tomorrow goes.
But today got me thinking about the two week wait. At first they were exciting, and nerve wracking, but recently I have been so busy that I hardly noticed them except for a couple of days before my period was ‘due’. Today I found this article, which I will attempt to critique from my personal perspective:
Here’s what Catherine suggests:
1. Step away from the computer. Yup, this is what I talked about in my blog post yesterday. Today I certainly felt a little bit of heightened anxiety looking at some other blogs and articles about implantation bleeding. When I am done with the blog I will do just that!
2. Distract, distract, distract (and plan for it). Usually I do have a distraction – my study for an online course, but I skipped this month’s module because of Christmas holidays. We have started watching a new TV series – The Americans (love this!), so this has been a great distraction. However tonight Chris is out doing some photography, and I can’t watch the next episode without him!!! With nothing good on TV, I have failed at distracting myself this evening. I must be more proactive about distractions next time from cycle day 1.
3. Write it down. I’m doing that write now!!! Do I get bonus points for writing about writing it down??!
4. Name your feelings. I’ve never tried this. So today, my feeling is ‘Anxiety’. I want to learn more about meditation techniques. A few months ago I downloaded an app called ‘Breathe‘ to help me learn some guided techniques. It has been brilliant at helping me to get to sleep when I have had work going around and around in my mind.
5. Stroll. Sleep. Take care of yourself. Chris and I have started doing more p90x3 in the mornings, getting up earlier, but going to bed much earlier. So I think this is another tick in the box. But as of tomorrow, I will make myself go out for a walk at lunch times whilst at work. I have been bad at this because it has been so cold recently.
6. Give yourself sad days. I have done this and treated myself to a monthly glass of wine. I only recently started to do this because I had given up alcohol almost completely for about 9 months. A little glass on the first day of my period can’t hurt as a treat. Chris is also great to talk to, but actually he gets more sad than I do sometimes. Our partners need these sad days too.
7. Try an intention. I do this at yoga classes when I go. I haven’t been for a while, so I might try and schedule in a few more classes during this time.
8. Practice a relaxation technique. I learned breathing techniques at yoga class, and strangely enough, at a presentation skills course. Thinking about your happy place and connecting it to a sensory point has helped me stay calm before big presentations. Combining that with deep breathing is an awesome feeling.
9. Try defensive pessimism. This is a new one for me as I am usually a glass half full kind of girl, but a little less so recently. I will try to work on the defensive perspective.
Thank you Catherine Pearson for your article, some great ideas I will put some into practice starting tomorrow.