On the second and fourth Tuesday of each month, a group of people gather for an hour at lunchtime to practice public speaking. The group of co-workers are members of Toastmasters and each time they meet two or three members give a short speach on a topic of their choosing. The goal is to improve public speaking skills, and in the course of learning and practicing the group hears an incredible array of stories and facts from each other.
This week was my turn to speak. I had a topic planned, a humorous speech I’d given at a contest three days earlier. The contest had been a challenge, it had been terrifying and it had been thrilling. Standing in front of a room to be judged on being funny is not easy. The experience showed me that being outside my comfort zone is a good thing and so on Monday night I changed the topic of my speech. I wanted to once again go beyond my comfort zone. With an hour of drafting and pulling some pictures together before going to bed I crafted my new speech. A speech on a topic that puts me outside my comfort zone. A speech to my co-workers about the challenges of IVF.
Speaking in front of a group of relative strangers on this most personal of topics was scary. Looking back at the film I realise that my defense mechanism for fear is to smile. That explains some of the unusually times smiles or laughs in the speech. This is my speech, this is a glimpse into my experience of our IVF journey.