I have had some spotting everyday since Friday – just the teeniest amount here and there. Every time I go to the toilet I feel sick to my stomach as I wipe and check the tissue with apprehension. I hold my pee just so I delay having to see the blood. I can feel my stomach starting to bloat, with a feeling of emptiness.
My app tells me I am 5 weeks and 5 days pregnant today and huckleberry is the size of a chocolate chip. But is huckleberry in there? Perhaps huckleberry is no longer there, may be he never developed after implantation, or may be he is hanging on for us to see him once again on the ultrasound tomorrow…
Time is dragging and the fog creeps thick around us, we try to keep busy, but it’s impossible to hide our deepest thoughts. I know that tomorrow is going to be a good day, whatever happens we will have some of the answers to many of our questions.
This post may sound depressive, but I promise you I am not – just sad and anxious, and I think it is OK to be feeling like this right now, it would probably be a bit weird if I didn’t.
The Great Pudding Club Hunt 
It is okay to feel exactly how you are right now. Your feelings are totally normal. I’m sending you love my friend.
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Thinking of u. I think u are feeling just as anyone in such a difficult position would.
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It would be completely expected to feel sad and anxious right now. I hope you get some answers soon
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It’s perfectly okay to be feeling like this, all your feelings are valid!
Love & virtual support ❤️❤️
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Just wanted to say that I’m thinking of you and sending you all the positive thoughts I can.
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Of course it’s ok to feel all those things. Having just been through this myself I cannot possibly convey the extent to which my heart is breaking for you. I did the holding the pee thing too. I became terrified of that bathroom. Sending you hugs. Xoxo
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Thinking of you every day! Hoping clarity can help bring you some peace and allow you to move forward with whatever is next for you.
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It us absolutely okay to be feeling the way you are and totally understandable! Hugs, my Friend!
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