This afternoon I had my mobile (cell) phone with me on loud so I could hear the doctor ring with my results. I get a lot of notifications and pings every 5 minutes so I am sure my colleagues were getting annoyed with me. But anyway, I received three pings all at once, which I thought was odd, so I checked my email to find a notification from my clinic for a new appointment, with my doctor tomorrow morning (The three pings were from my email and app that tracks my appointments). Well isn’t that just nice? My eyes started to well up because I knew this had to be bad news – what a crappy way to find out? After 20 minutes of consoling myself, I finally received the call from my doctor. My hCG levels have continued to rise again to 686 (Tues) from 345 (Fri). Not good news. So my doctor starts talking more about this potentially being a tubal (ectopic) pregnancy…she didn’t really tell me anything new from yesterday, she stressed again that there is zero chance that I have a viable pregnancy (OK so I got that from yesterday when there was nothing on the ultrasound).
Tomorrow morning I will have another ultrasound to double check my uterus for a (non-viable) pregnancy and some blood tests to see if I am suitable candidate for the drug methotrexate. I have done a bit more research into this drug, and I really want the doctor to explain all tomorrow – I will be using my 3 point guide to help me feel better informed! The best guide I found is from the NHS:
“The use of methotrexate to treat pregnancy of unknown location and ectopic pregnancy” available here.
I have been having some random (but not sharp) short pains today, including pain on the left side. I have also not passed any blood today. The problem is with Irritable Bowel Syndrome for me is that stress causes pain, so I am having a hard time distinguishing between the two – I don’t feel stressed per se, but this rollercoaster surely can’t be good for my gut.
In the meantime I’m looking forward to tomorrow’s appointment as I move from feeling sad to feeling mad – mad that this feels really unfair and crappy. I’m taking bets on how many med students/doctors/fellows/nurses they can squeeze this time in the room for my ultrasound tomorrow…..I have a feeling there will be some interest 😐